A Different World

I just finished watching a TV show called "How to Get the Guy" on ABC. It's a "reality" type show that follows 4 different women in their quest to find "the one." Each woman fits nicely into your typical stereotype: the girl next door, the dreamer, the career girl, the party girl. I watched and as I did, I was just again reminded that I live in a totally different world than those women in San Francisco.

I case you did not know, I am single and a Christian. I don't rely on alcohol to enhance my personality or give me boldness when it come to meeting men. Typically, I don't meet men. You have to realize that I live in a town of about 25,000 people. I attend a church of about 350. I can count on one hand the number of "eligible" men that I know who I would consider dating. I don't go clubbing, I don't really have any outside interests that take me out of my general circle. Most of my friends are married except for 4-5 of them, of those 4-5, two are men who are very close friends and I don't date them, they are like brothers. I have a dilemma. What in the world would I do to meet a single, Godly, man with character and a love for the Lord?

Now, I am not sitting here pining away for a man. I am pretty successful on my own, but, I would be lying if I said I did not want to get married. I do want to be married. I have dabbled with E-Harmony. Actually an old roommate of mine met her husband on E-Harmony and she is a pretty down to earth person, so, hey, maybe it's not so bad. It just seems weird to me. I may try it again here soon. Who knows.

There are times when I long for marriage, for that relationship, that someone who is there, someone to do things with , have kids with. I'll go thru phases of being a little angry about being 34 years old and single. I did not count on this. I'll look around with my physical eyes and see no options, no chances out there. Panic will set in and I'll think, "Crap, I might as well get a few more cats and just embrace it." But, when I look with my spiritual eyes, I know in my Knower that God is faithful. He has put this desire in my heart and He is a good and generous Father who will not give me a snake when I ask for bread. So, I wait. I answer the questions at least 3-4 times a week of, "Are you dating anyone?" or "When are you going to get married?" or, "Do you think he's just gonna knock on your door?" (uh...yes) or "Are you a widow?" (funny story to that one, my BFF's daughter ask me that a few years ago, she was about 6 years old and my other BFF was living with me while she worked some stuff out with her husband and my friend's daughter asked if she and I were widows, pretty cute) One of my single friends sent this link to me a while back to give me an arsenal of answers to these questions, ‘Why aren’t you married yet?’

So, after watching that TV show, I found that I was thankful that I had a Father in heaven who's got my back. God is faithful and as long as I know that I'm good.